Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Well we have had an emotional few weeks around here! For those of you who don't know, Joe has been trying to get on at the prison off and on for years. He gave up and decided to help some friends open a motor home rental company. He has felt like things weren't going well with the owners and was tired of how they treated him. So he decided it was time to try again! He got further than before! We even thought he was hired! They sent him a letter welcoming him into the academy and even issued him his uniform! Well on Monday (my 30th birthday) we got a letter in the mail saying that they were taking back their offer of employment!

In the mean time the Rental company feel apart and we were OK, because the final owner kept him on until the end of the month! Here we were thinking that we were finally where we wanted to be! On Joe's way to his dream job, and got a huge smack in the face! I know that when the Lord shuts a door he opens an other, but right now we can't see it and I hope that he doesn't wait as long as he has before! I was so excited that I even let my guard down and started to look into houses for sell, by both Prisons!

He wrote the warden a letter telling how much he wanted to be in law enforcement. He has a friend that works at the prison that put it on the wardens desk for him. It's a long shot but we are praying that it softens the wardens heart and he re offers Joe his job! In the mean time Joe is looking for a new job. And the thought that I may need to get a job to help out terrifies me!

Joe has been working the night shift at Cal-Ranch to earn some extra play money. So at least we have a little income, but not enough to pay all the bills! They have offered him more hours to help out until something better is found! In fact they are opening a store in West Jordan and are looking for an assistant manager. His boss told him that he should apply! Which is actually a really good option! He would still like to get on at the prison, but this would pay the bills and put us closer to the prison!

I am awake to night because I have a horrible earache! And with out insurance I can't afford the medicine to make it go away! At least it's me and not the boys I guess! So far being 30 sucks! At least we have alot of suportive family and friends! If it wasn't for them I probably would have had a huge mental break down along time ago! But I need to get on to a happier subject!

For my birthday I wanted the book BRISINR. I asked Joe if he would get it for me early and he kept telling me that we had to wait until he started the prison. He brought it home for me last week!

Ammon and Jacob are as cute as ever! Jacob can say his name now, and telles me that Ammon is his! I will hug Ammon and Jacob will walk over and say "Mommy, top (stop) dat Acobs Abba." In fact the other day I asked him how Mommy's Jacob was and he said "I dadda's Acob."
Monday when I couldn't stop crying Ammon gave me a hug and asked me what was wrong. I didn't dare tell him, but he told me that I would be OK. Cause it was my birthday, so I need to be happy! I tryied to explain today why daddy was home and he said, "But my daddy is going to start school to be a policeman." I told him that they told him no, and that was why I was crying yesterday. He said "mommy that is why I was crying too!"

I need to learn to always have my camera with me. Also not to lose my temper and take pictures of the things they do! It has been a while since this happened, and I didn't take pictures. I think it was right before Shannon's wedding. I had just gotten my hair colored for the wedding. The next day I was making my bed and getting the needed item's ready to take with us. When Ammon commes running into my bed room. "Mom come see Jacob's new hair." Thinking that we were just in a game of pretend I follow him into the bathroom. Where before I get there I smell one of my Victoria Secret lotions. Then there is Jacob standing in the tub with Yellow hair! Ammon had used most of my travel sized lotion to "wash" Jacob's hair for me! Even though I gave him a real bath and really washed his hair he smelled like my lotion for days!

Well I have gotten a good cry out and the Asprin I took is starting to kick in! So I will let you all know when things start to look better for us!

1 comment:

Hayden and Brent said...

Oh Heather! I feel for you! We have been between a rock a nd a hard spot since January when Brent got hurt on the job! He reached MMI-maximum medical improvement on August 25 with a ladder restriction still in place. The insurance company stopped paying us...Yikes! So we've been there...But its nice tio be able to say that a better job fell right into Brents lap! It will come! Be patient...I know its hard! We were looking at houses too and then he got hurt! I am glad things didnt work out like I wanted them to! He is in a safer, better job! Again be patient! It will come! And I know how you feel about no insurance...Braxton hasn't felt well, but I cant afford to go to the doctor today and then his 4 month appointment on the 14th...Yikes it really stinks! Hang in there! It will get better! I will keep you guys in my prayers!